Hello, my name is Hellen, and I have 2 children(actually 3; she's 20 now), but my younger children are 3 and 4 years. I struggled so much raising my oldest daughter as a single mother. Now I have tried to start over and everything went downhill like a nightmare. I ended up divorcing for the secong time, and my ex is so jealous and insecure, and I am in Nursing school, I am not in the program yet, but I am down to my last class for pre-requisites, then I will apply in a few months. But I am struggling so much, and I do not work, I am full time in school, and I receive grants, and have received a scholarship for $500. But I do not start my next class until Aug. 31, 09. I am in such turmoil, because my ex-husband is always bothering me about how I cheat on him, I think it is because I divorced him in 08. But I want to be in peace with my children, and I do not have income coming in . I want to be a nurse, and be happy. I have waited 17 years to get started at becoming a nurse. I am so scared I will not finish for some reason or another, I am so close, I am on my last classes, and I can apply for the Nursing program. They go on points, and it is limited entry program, but I have done good so far, and like I said, I am on my last classes. But I am bothered every day, he always says to me he will quit his job, just irresponsible things, inmature acts, and I tried to apply for aid through the government, but to receive any monies I have to work at the gov. office every day from 9-5 pm, and for $300 a month, and I have to be in school at this time, I do receive Food stamp benefits, but I just do not know what to do, I feel so unhappy and like there is no peace for me. I am worried about my rent, I don't trust him for support, I feel he would do anything for us to suffer because he is miserable, and have the most beautiful children which I love with all my being. I don't have family, so this makes me even more troubled. I wish I had a support system, extended family, but I don't. I feel trapped! Literally trapped, and I am desperately trying to finish my school. Do you have any advice? When I received my school financial aid, I paid in full a school day care for the time I went to school, and I just do not like to take them to daycare, because, one, I can not afford it, it is so expensive, but I did apply for child care assistance, and they were always ill when they went to the daycare . Thank you for listening, I hope to hear from you.
